date: Tuesday, December 28, 2004 @ 1:41 am
title: Day X'mas II: Baptism.. I'm Gonna take the Nations and Get Chased by the Authorities, den Fly away in my Chariot...
I'm a full pledged Christmas who happened to be a student-soon-to-be in SRJC.. I'm a Frontier for Jesus and a Servant for God, for without God's grace, I will still be rotting in wrath..
I have been facing trials and testing and temptation everyday.. literally without them. I don't feel God is with me.
Taking example today..
The whole day, I was in consistent communion with God. I laughed and chatted with Him. I was so joyful..
Let me share something..
While sing praise and humming hymn.. He told me what speech to prepare the next time I face mockery of my choice to follow God, transfer from ORPC to Revival Nation..
'Say in boldness in remembrance of what I did powerfully after you chose to carry the cross with me.
Jesus was rejected by the people in his town, who watched Him grow up and compared Him with His legitimate family (which I was too mocked by my uncle when I went to visit my cousin, he questioned me whether it was right to set up independent church.).
I promise you that you too will be rejected by many, but embrace by countless. You will tell them this,
" Those who rejects I, is also rejecting Him. Thus you will be responsible for your eternal damnation, for you have rejected His offering for salvation. But those who accept I, He will accept you as well. Thus we will dwell in His Kingdom forever. "
You will be sent to those who are not with me, but against me. You will prophesy over their future and they will repent immediately. Mourning and weeping for their sins. And I will forgive them. But soon, they return to their old ways and den you will prophesy again, to be mocked by their unbelief. You shall shake the dust off your sandals and leave them to their accord.
Those who scoff at you will be left to their own accord and ... '
Bla bla bla.. I portrayed this image in my mind:
I'm donned in the 'Circle of Truth' Tee-shirt, Puma scarlet track pants and my black-jet Visor, with a wooden staff on my right hand. I loped boldly into the middle of the assembly and slammed the staff onto the ground.
DUM.DUM..DUM...
The echo reverted and overlapped.. An earthquake uprooted the whole church for it says in the bible:
'a time to plant and a time to uproot.'
The roof collapsed and the wall tore down for it says in the bible:
'a time to tear down and a time to build.'
I was alone...
All these were the things Ithought of in His presence..
All this happened when I was trekking to Chuan Chen's house to deliver the medication I promised him.. There is more, but i didn't write them down..
After my arrival at mum's office.. I went to a deep sleep at the room above with windows shut tight. Soon after, I was awaken.. Spiritual attack was immediate, I lost control over my flesh.
I was suffering from morning erection. (men's stuff. you can check online..)
Lustful thoughts flooded my mind, trying to steal all the promises that God gave me, killing the seed of faith by strangling it with the root of lustfulness and destroying my self-control produced when the Holy Spirit dwells in me. My Spirit was weeping in sorrow and pain. I, too was.
I asked God for help and went to the kitchen downstairs to wash up.
When your faith is under serious temptation.. you might just die spiritually if you give into temptation. I really detest that.
I prayed again, after washing up.. It just didn't leave but worsen.
' Go and mast****te now.. the pain will go away,' a voice called out.
My head was heavy and my vision was slightly blurred.. I was losing control over my body, I gave into temptation and mast****te for a sec in the toilet.. den I remembered the old life that I detest. I quickly went out of the toilet and sat on the dusty cold floor, I went into serious prayer for forgiveness and the faith to believe that God will overcome it. I was repeating this.
" God, let me overcome this.." and tongues.
Den immediately, the erection subsided.. The faith outshone the root of darkness and his love banished their stronghold over me.
I finally overcame temptation of lust..
Later God spoke to me again.. He reminded me about Elijah's prayer for the rain, that Elijah prayed 7 times for the rain to fall, which Elijah had already the authority to ask for it anytime as God promised.
God again promised me that more will come.. that my faith was again stretched, compressed and shaken, finally fattened.
That's the story I have for what God has done for me the day after my commitment to follow him with all my mind, all my soul, all my life until the end of the days...
I'm always His faithful servant.
A God whom I revere with reverence.
God Rulzzz...
